Good Things: 27 October 2003
Good things: I can be gay-friendly without explaining it. I can decide for myself what to do with my life instead of trying to discover "God's will." I can date who I want. I can swear and no one cares. I don't need to fit. I don't need to apologize for stupid embarrassing Chrsitians. I can read anti-Christian or non-Bible religious stuff without fear of repurcussions, appearing ungodly, or being deceived by Satan. I don't have to read the Bible. I don't feel guilty for not doing devotions. I can connect sex with something other than lust. I don't have to sing crap songs. I never have to have the tongues/prophecy debate again. I don't have to go to church. I don't have to go to Bible studies. I can study evolution with an open mind for the first time ever. I never have to listen to Hillsongs again. I don't have to try to feel bad about masturbation. I don't have to evangelise. I can like non-Christians the way they are without hoping they change. I can hate Carman even more.
So, it's not all bad and confusing. They say that I'll experience feelings of separation, lost-ness, anxiety, doubt, and anger. But also new freedom.
I sometimes find myself turning to address God and then I remember that I'm not on the Jesus-as-your-buddy system anymore. Just a dial tone now.
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