Truly Alone: 25 October 2003
Tomorrow morning I am going to church despite the fact that I don't believe it. I will not sing. I will not take communion. But, I told R I would go.
I don't know how church will go. Eventually, I'm going to have to talk to KP about this. I can't yet say that I'm not a Christian, but I seem to be planning on how to tell people. I suppose I'm afraid of not being able to come back if I utter the words.
Tonight I looked in the mirror and felt truly alone and in private, without even God seeing me... but then thought "but then where did I come from?"
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