Uncomfortable in Church: 23 September 2001
I went to the Bethany Missionary Alliance church today. It was alright, I guess. The worship leader reminded me of all that was bad at the Salvation Army, and so I was very wary of him. I'm just realising how much that has coloured my impressions and changed my reactions to thing. It kind of scares me. I need to sort things out. I wish all my leaders had been like DB and JS. Good guys. They're conservative—maybe I'm conservative if that's the kind of people I like.
Part of me is starting to want holiness, and it scares the rest of me. I've been totally flesh-driven for so long, and I don't want to be the flake that I once was. I want to feel comfortable in church again. I don't trust them.
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