Nervous About School: 17 August 2001
I think I might be sick, I can't eat much at all right now. It might be nervousness about starting Bible College. I thought about school this morning and I almost threw up. I'm so afraid that I'll hate it, and equally afraid to love it. I'm afraid of either feeling like it's a mutated College & Careers group and not fitting in, or that I'll change and suddenly fit in with all these cheesy Bible-thumping people who couldn't hang out with "sinners" if their life depended on it. I don't want to be a sellout for Jesus. T. and E. decided that I'll either love it or hate it, that there's no in-between for me. In that case, I hope I love it.
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