Faith Dissolved
This is a chronicle of my journey from the evangelical Christian faith that I grew up with to weak atheism. Read about my take on weak atheism here. The content on this part of the site is drawn from journals, past websites, emails and letters that I saved, bits and pieces that I scribbled in school books, and random text files that I saved over the years. It's up on the Internet because I felt like sharing with people who are in the midst of doubting and are terrified of life without Christianity like I was, and with people who never experienced the evangelical community and are curious. You might want to read about my religious background first, because Christian groups vary quite a bit and it's always good to know where people are coming from. I wasn't a fundamentalist American Southern Baptist, I wasn't Catholic, and I wasn't a liberal Christian. Oh, Christianity. Such a big funny family, where everyone's always trying to be different from their cousins.
Post-Salvation Army:
Honest Questions: sometime in 2000
Being an Instrument: 04 March 2001
Praise Poem: 18 June 2001
Clichés: 03 July 2001
Cautious: 23 July 2001
Delighting the Spirit: 24 July 2001
Please Stay: 25 July 2001
Other Voices: 26 July 2001
At Peace: 27 July 2001
Joseph Girzone: 28 July 2001
Greater Than Our Hearts: 31 July 2001
Holiness and the Law: 01 August 2001
Fitted for that Work: 02 August 2001
Brought the Wine: 03 August 2001
Becoming Human: 04 August 2001
Church Jargon: 09 August 2001
Nervous about School: 17 August 2001
Eek!: 03 September 2001
Bible College #1
In the year that King Uzziah died: 22 September 2001
Uncomfortable in Church: 23 September 2001
Where I'm "Supposed" to Be: 26 September 2001
WWJD: 29 September 2001
The Bubble: 02 October 2001
I Don't Fit Here: 09 October 2001
Chapel Observations: 11 October 2001
To Know and Enjoy God: 12 October 2001
Disturbing Dreams: 07 February 2002
New Direction: 12 March 2002
Reassured: 03 April 2002
Essence: 05 April 2002
Satisfied: 13 April 2002
Dead Robins: 20 June 2002
Shifting Sand: 19 July 2002
Disillusioned: 31 July 2002
Grown Cold: 13 August 2002
Bible College #2
Church History: 09 May 2003
Damn Straight: 13 May 2003
Christianity vs. Christ: 31 July 2003
I Want to Know: 19 August 2003
University Year 1
Crisis of Faith: 08 September 2003
Causeless Cause: 17 October 2003
Basics: 23 October 2003
Choosing an Angle: 24 October 2003
Truly Alone: 25 October 2003
Powerful Delusion: 26 October 2003
Good Things: 27 October 2003
Initial Shock: 28 October 2003
Making the Jump: 29 October 2003
Leaving Mentorship: 01 November 2003
Settling a Bit: 06 November 2003
Dealing with the Shock: 07 November 2003
Lonely: 08 November 2003
Devious: 11 November 2003
Processing: 12 November 2003
RLP: 13 November 2003
What I Liked About My Faith: 14 November 2003
Free to Not Fit: 19 November 2003
What to Say to the Parents: 21 November 2003
In So Long: 24 November 2003
Missing Jesus: 29 November 2003
Spiritual Abuse: 03 December 2003
Who I Am In Me: 04 December 2003
Pagan Origins: 05 December 2003
Sheol and Heaven: 07 December 2003
My Mind and My Gut: 09 December 2003
I Told My Parents: 12 December 2003
Not Ready For Debate: 31 December 2003
Not Just A Hobby: 08 January 2004
YHWH, Zeus, Thor: 09 January 2004
Confrontation: 10 January 2004
Letter to a Struggling Friend: 11 January 2004
Anger: 24 January 2004
Reading Everything: 20 February 2004
Sending The Letter: 08 March 2004
Getting A Reaction: 13 March 2004
Each Day is a God: 24 March 2004
Reason for the Season: 30 March 2004
Prayer: 04 April 2004
Heavy Topics: 18 April 2004
All Our Faults: 22 April 2004
Atheist Adjectives: 01 May 2004
Ways Higher Than YHWH's: 03 May 2004
Causing the First Cause: 18 May 2004*
Liberating: 22 May 2004
Fall-Out: 24 June 2004*
Demon-Possessed Pigs: 07 July 2004*
On Faith and Doubt and Liberals: 13 July 2004*
To the Dead God: 05 August 2004*
Sex Positivity: 08 August 2004*
You Might Just Realise What You're Missing (You're Missing Me): 17 August 2004*
*Added since 05 May 2006.