Listening to: Comfort Eagle by Cake

Ugh, I'm feeling all PMS-y this week. Super-cranky, irritable over things that I KNOW are perfectly reasonable, tired, and reeeeeeeeeeally craving fries. This craving is not sated by fries, it just comes back the next day. I did, however, manage to resist it last night despite the ready availability of said fries. I just didn't have anything to put with them, because I am poor, rarely at home, and lacking in groceries. The great part is that it's filling me with self-doubt and thoughts like "maybe my anti-depressant dealio didn't actually work" and let me tell you, that's a lot of fun.

I wonder if I am actually PMSing though. That's the thing about being on the shot—I've gotten my period twice since last July, and both times I got really moody and had no idea what the hell was going on. Surprise! Bleeding from your uterus! Being on the shot is pretty great in terms of not bleeding most of the time (see also: not being pregnant, not having to take a pill every day), but then every period is a complete surprise and it's not like I'm stocked up on pads or anything since I might not ever get my period again. (Takes a year or two to adjust, apparantly, and after that it just stops for most people.) Most girls are always prepared, but it has been a long time since I had an emergency-period-pocket in my bag. Maybe I should re-make that, just in case.

I have to say, though, not getting all moody and cranky and craving random things every month really makes a person realise how crazy it is when it does happen again. Girls just go crazy for a week every month and can't do a damn thing about it. Hell, I want to cry over bank commercials, and I am NOT the type to cry over cheesy stuff like that. What's worse is that I react defensively to everything. I'm really trying to keep those reactions in my crazy hormone-addled head, but it's hard when your brain is screaming "HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT TO ME!" about every damn thing. Hopefully I'm keeping a rather reasonable persona going, but my emotions this week? they are unreasonable. I just have to keep that in mind and realise that while I may hate people this week, next week it should be all better.

My cousin's wife used to (still does?) have a magnet on her fridge that said "I have PMS and a shotgun. Any questions?"